Dont Shout!

so while enjoying my coffee this morning, i was browsing through my dashboard and totally forgot about these random videos that i got to stack up on my drafts. well, I've always had a thing in hoarding tho i think mine is still benign. i tried to watch them, last thing i knew i was cracking up real hard. they made my day. i hope yours too. here's some of them.



anger management for Germans please. lol

what if all animals are round? epic.

and my favorite, best cop ever! Real or fake you know this is hella funny!

Getting Back Home

Recently i received an email from a friend asking how i was doing and why i stopped blogging. for a moment i almost forgot what blogging was until i visited my old blog site and everything rushed back in just a snap. i remember putting this up over 5 years ago, back when i was in college. it instantly became my escape from the real world that i was in. i would blog just about anything and i would enjoy it so much. i wasn't good at this unlike the others who've been doing it for a living, but at least there are quite a few people who followed and admired entries that i had published in this blog. and it made me feel good. it feels good when you know people appreciate what you love to do (even the nonsense ones). and who would forget the bloggers i met and became friends with. they weren't just actually friends to me. they were also my mentors giving me ideas and advice on what and how blogging really is. and with the layout? well I've always wanted to be different. unique. i wanted to have my own. even with how my blog would look like. i was never a computer freak (and not dreaming of becoming one by any chance) but i have worked my ass off real hard self learning the searing-headache-provoking rule of HTML (oh hey, i was once a PC freak!) just to get the exact look that would satisfy my insatiable eagerness to be unlike any other. and it took me sometime or perhaps a long time.

So i read some of my old entries in this old blog. i was a college student back then, who didn't have any background in writing, blogging and/or that kind of stuff, so you don't expect something really great from anything posted here, but the last thing i noticed, i was smiling while reading them and some even got me cracked up, and that's because i remembered how awful my writing skills were. tho i'm not saying i'm a badass at it now. in fact i still probably have the lousiest writing skills that somebody could ever have. but hey! i love doing this thing so sorry but you can just suck that up. the last entry that i published was years ago. never really exerted any efforts at all to continue blogging. probably because i didn't have the luxury of time now since i'm working full time. but then it got me thinking, i know i could always find time. i suddenly got this tittering feeling inside me when i thought about getting back to blogging. I've always loved this. why have i even stopped doing what I've always loved to do in the first place? but lets not give importance with the answer to that question anymore. past is past.

I was then decided to go back blogging. i started by finding another best blogging platform there is. don't get me wrong, i love blogger like hell. this is where i started, i just kinda felt like trying something new. but to my disappointment, I couldn't find anything better than blogger. (naks! bumabawi!) so to sum up the story, im goin back to my ancestral blogging home. and ITS NICE TO GET BACK! this place is all the same for the last 5 years, and i dont think i have any plans of changing any of this, or perhaps just a bit of renovation on the side. now i'm glad to say that i decided to blog again. im looking forward to making time blogging once in a while maybe, tell stories about myself, people circumstances, and just about anything under the sun. excitement has penetrated me, and the future is within my reach.

How Girls Act When They Drop Something

Dont Forget To Love Yourself

IT’S FERUARY 15!!! Thank God I was able to survive the hype of yesterday. Thought I wasn’t gonna make it but thankfully I did. While everyone was out getting some dinner date with their significant other or friends or family, I was slumped in my bed and waiting for it to get done.  Im not being bitter or am I? perhaps yea. To make it worst I just got dumped.  I kinda tried to beat the deadline but unfortunately didn’t make it.

Yesterday was all about Chocolates, flowers, dinner date, heart shaped balloons, matching red shirts and what not.  To sum ‘em all up? Its LOVE baby!  Looove, its what keeps everyone alive.  We give love coz we wanna get that back too. Everyone wants to get loved it’s the greatest thing in this world, and as they say; in whatever you do, do it with love.  Don’t ask me who said that coz the hell I know. But it makes sense. Do everything with love coz it’s gonna get back at you. As simple as that.

But today I wanna talk about loving yourself. Coz you know what they say? If you cant love yourself how in the hell are you gonna love somebody else? Ring a bell? I mean, how do you expect to give love to everyone and everything, if in the first place you don’t give it to yourself? remember this; no one's gonna love you if you don't love yourself. But the question is do we really know what loving ourselves mean? Well I was browsing the web and came across this article that talked about life. From what I read,  

                  

“Loving yourself is mainly having self-respect which is the only dependable way to create love in your own life to share with others. When you expect love from an external source, and someone or something does not fulfill your void and fantasies, then you will feel worse than before. To be able to be loved, you must love and respect yourself as much as you do others.”

recently i realized something that has a great connection to this..just like everybody else im also gettng some tough times in life. and its not easy especially in my situation where everyone has very high expectations. and i don't wanna disappoint them especially my family. and also i was kind of at war here with myself with regards to this. my longing to get freed and be happy is being hindered by what the society and the church had dictated us, and for that i hated the both of them.

only just now that im getting this very strange feeling where i wanna be liberated. i feel like this is the right time to settle things up. so i told my friends about it. we'd been together for like almost 5 yrs and i never told them. and i could say i have the coolest friends in the world coz they're perfectly fine about it. now im tryna make my way of tellin everyone. im gettin there and im sure i am very close.



here's the step on how to love yourself that i was able to come up after all these dramas in life;

• Embracing Yourself

first step is to embrace yourself. you must know who you really are; what you are, and what you're not; the things you can do and those that you cant. you have to know and acknowledge these things and embrace them coz that's part of who you really are. we cannot deny that fact.

• Accepting Yourself

now this is where most people are having problems with. most of us cannot accept ourselves. prolly coz of the media, what the society telling us is right, the church and whatever. you just have to know that you're born that way and nothing can stop you from being free and being happy. forget about what shit they're gonna say. it's YOU who can decide for yourself.

• Loving Yourself

love is coming from within. you no longer compulsively search for fulfillment or completeness of yourself from the external world be it a person or an achievement. fulfillment exudes within yourself which you will then share with others. now, you're ready for that one great love ;)



..remember what lady gaga told you; YOU ARE BORN THAT WAY :]
..jeszieBoy

This Is Titled As Untitled

Its the 4th page of the new chapter in my life. im in front of my desktop tryna come up with something that i could put into writing. i promised that i would make time to do more entries on my blog, now i have all the time that i got, i feel like im gettin a writer's block. (just spare me that hallucination. im a frustrated writer. really.) i just felt like i needed to write about something that im still tryna figure out as im composing the next few words of this paragraph. it has been always like that. blogging has been a way of releasing my inner thoughts and most of the time, my emotions. i could literally just throw off everything here. that kinda makes me feel relieved, and dismissed, and reassured and whatnot.

talking about emotions, last 2011 was a circle of emotions. it was one roller coaster ride actually, in which i would say had gotten the back seat ( which is the best seat if you love that weightlessness feeling). so here's the summary of my last year. 

February

I took and passed my comprehensive exam, the hardest exam ever that I have taken in my entire life which landed me to one of the greatest moments of my life that happened March of the same year. I was dead nervous that I totally lost control of everything; I forgot what the date was. I even almost forgot my name.  tho I thought I was just really lucky enough to be one of the few who made it, I couldn’t stop thinkin’ how proud I was of myself! Lmao.

March

21^st of this month to be exact was pure bliss. It was my graduation day. That feeling when you’re standing right next to someone you're not even familiar with, smiling and tellin each other how ecstatic you guys were, that everything had finally been paid off. And that graduation march song was the best song ever! (if that was ever a song)

April

I took and passed my qualifying exam which was our pre-board exam. I remember how terrified I was thinkin if i wouldn’t make it, my school wouldn’t permit me to take the boards. but fortunately, again i was one of the few who actually made it.

May
it was the start of the battle to get my license. two grueling and sleepless and tough months in preparation for  the greatest combat of my life. i almost gave up but my dreams kept the fire burning.

July
2nd & 3rd of this month of 2011. 2 months of preparation for a 2 day battle. i was all set and ready to kick some ass. lmao. Nursing Licensure Examination. 3 years back i would day-dream about this very day, how it would feel like, and how it would actually turn out. now i was here. standing in front of my assigned chamber fervently waiting for it to be cracked open.

14th of this month i was hired by the top bpo company in  the country and was getting a good pay. it had been really on plan then. right after the last day of my battle, i took a break for like a week. then opted to find a job. and landed from where i was for the next 6 mos.

September
results came out, and after i saw my name on the list of board passers, i literally jumped out of my seat, and strangled my cousin till he couldn't breathe no more. he slapped me on my face and i realized that it wasn't me at all. so i went back to my seat and tried to be modest as possibly as i could. and continued searching for some names.

October
i was transferred from ortigas site to makati site where i met this person that made my stay at the company special for a month and painful for the next 2 months. painful like someone just casted a cruciatus curse on you.

December
i was determined with my decision. last day of 2011 was my last day at work. i QUIT my job.

change is the only constant and permanent thing in life. change of plans is just one big aspect of it. certainly reasons are behind and lurking somewhere but if you think you're one of these reasons, hate to break it to ya, but YES! YOU WERE!.  lmao. but to make it easier for you, you're not the front act of the show so breathe easy.

suddenly i had this strange feeling inside me that made me realize that i was supposed to do something else. something that i was destined to do. something that would hoist my dignity as a human. and right then and then, i told myself; "you need to pursue your profession brotha"

it will be a new start of my journey to life.. its gonna be really damn hard, but im just gonna believe and hold on. and surely eventually, time will come that i will realize it was all worth it. i will have no regrets at all. and i will live the life that I've always searched for.

..jeszieBoy
..commit to the Lord whatever you do and your plans will succeed -proverbs 16:3

11 Awesomely Incorrect Test Answers From Kids

..jeszieBoy
..this just set my mood. im ready to hit the sack!

you dont really care do you?

..jeszieBoy
..some things are not just meant to be.

Its Good To Be Back!

December 19, 2011, 2:55 in the morning. i was awaken by a guy moaning so loud that i thought he was right in front of me. i could barely see his face but what he said was clear. it was "go back". when i opened my eyes, i was blinded by the lights from my tv. i forgot to turn it off. again. then i went downstairs to grab a glass of water. i realized i was hungry so i helped myself with some sandwich, turned on the pc, checked my email, then my facebook. and out of nowhere, i just hit this link on my page where it dragged me to my blogsite.

it was my blogsite. my last entry was back in january 2011 and since then i never made any effort to make another post. maybe because i simply dont have the luxury of time anymore.i put up this blog when i was in college. it has been over 3 yrs. and its still up and running. waiting for me to come back.

i remember the time when i started. i was a young sophomore then. it was christmas season and i was having a heartache so i came up with this where i tried to vent out everything. this was my confidante. even when i made it thru that storm, this blog used to be everything to me. my bestfriend. and i must admit now that im working time doesnt give me anything but work, i just simply forgot about this. which kinda makes me feel bad.

and you know whats strange? now its christmas season and im currently having kind of a heartache thing.that guy on my dream was probably myself telling me to go back into blogging again now that im getting some hard time at work beacuse of that stupid thing called love. so i just did.

and as im making this entry, i realized how much i missed it. i might not be really good at doing this, but some people do appreciate it. which makes me feel good about myself. now im thinking i wanna go back to what i really love to do. BLOGGING. i really do. and i promise to make time.


..jeszieBoy
..i seriously felt better after making this entry. :]

57 Things To Do Instead Of killing Yourself

Early this morning when i woke up from one of my wildest dreams, i realized that i forgot to turn off my tv last night. it was still on the same channel. it was like the cnn reporter was actually on my dream. she was delivering her spiel (if that's what you call it) about this guy who tried to kill himself but unsuccessful. and then i switched to a local news channel. -a broken hearted guy jumped off the MRT track as the train approaching. and guess what happened, he survived. if my mind is serving me right, it would be the second of such incident. and then i thought, jumping off MRT tracks, has it become a trend? i wonder what preoccupies the minds of these people.

and so i was surfing the net, stumbling and came across this list of things that one can actually engaged in instead of trying to kill themselves. some of these may be nonsense but there's one thing that this list is trying to convey. i just hope people will realize that.

• Drive in one direction until you reach the ocean.
• Say hello to everyone you pass during the day.
• Frown until your mouth muscles hurt (then see how much easier it is to smile.)
• Create your own alphabet.
• Start a scrapbook.
• Make something you invented or invent something you can make.
• Figure out if has no solution for non zero integers x, y, and z if n is an integer greater than two.
• Make a BLT.
• Work the crossword puzzle.
• Count backwards from 10 billion by 13s.
• Visit a yard sale.
• Put on some really comfortable shoes. Walk somewhere in them.
• Make something nice for someone and give it to them.
• Go see a movie. (See two or three in a row. You may have to make extended visits to the restroom between films.)
• Read The Lost Soul Companion.
• Make your own list of things to do instead of killing yourself (and then do them.)
• Organize your own mock funeral, invite family and friends, encourage them to eulogize you. (Tell them how you've really been feeling lately and see what happens.)
• Let someone proofread your suicide note.
• Build a fort.
• Meditate.
• Shampoo your hair. Repeat if desired.
• Create an elaborate hoax. (Try not to get arrested.)
• Get arrested.
• Blow the stink off!
• Sneak into a church. Enjoy the sunlight and quiet.
• Write me a letter. (Be assured of a hopeful reply.)
• Volunteer somewhere.
• Doodle.
• Enter a contest.
• Write a poem.
• Just breathe.
• Take a class.
• Finish something you started.
• Drink a cup of tea with sugar and milk if that's how you like it.
• Jump up and down on a big trampoline.
• Pray.
• Eat a tomato.
• Pet a kitty cat.
• Smoke a cigarette. (It's slower.)
• Answer your telephone the next time it rings. (I know you haven't been...)
• Ask a stranger for some good advice.
• Paint a mural.
• Start a garden.
• Do the dishes. (It's OK if you've let them pile up. Wash a couple of them at least.)
• Visit lostsoulcompanion.com.
• Rescue an animal.
• Take your loose change to the bank.
• Play some beautiful music.
• Ask an old person to tell you a story.
• Make yourself breakfast in bed.
• Eat cookies.
• Stare at clouds.
• Visit the maternity ward.
• Send flowers anonymously.
• Make a long to-do list. Do everything on it.
• Set a world record.
• Open the curtains.

..jeszieBoy

..man the point is there's more to life. it's beautiful, so dont waste yours.

So, This Is What Happened

It was new year's eve, while at the grocery i stumbled upon this pretty lady with wide oval eyes

i messed up. the world hates me.

..jeszieBoy

..Happy New Year!

After 6 Months

I really dont know how to start up this post. it's been 6 freaking moths since i last posted an entry. i just literally darted off from the blogsphere for pretty much a while. crap, i know my blogging thingy is starting to really get dilapidated. i just lack everything. the drive, ideas, time, creativity, whatever, and i hate it coz i've always loved blogging. or maybe not. maybe i just dont get to have more time to sit in front of my computer and let my struggling imagination and my reluctant fingers do the rest.

or it could be because of this;

im already on my senior year which means i have to really work my butt hard if i wanna get my name on that list of students who will be marching in PICC this summer. everything is swiftly pacing, fast track. im not even sure if im catching up with everything that's going on. i feel like i wanna smoke pot right now just to slow everything down or just hit that pause button even for a little while. this sem has got to be the hardest! but man, there aint nothing to it but to just do it and get everything done in time, hopefully. and then graduate!

yea, that's pretty convincing and more acceptable. so i think imma stick to it. on other note, i really missed blogging. i just wish every faculty in school gets sick so everything will be postponed until further notice. or every printing machines they have get jammed. that way i'll have all the time i want to just blog and blog and blog! i've been missing a lot! probably everything. is that what you call s-a-c-r-i-f-i-c-e? damn. i wonder how it feels to get school stuff as sacrifice for every gods in this planet.

CHRISTMAS! i almost forgot. it actually kinda ease everything up with all these mouth-watering food my mom made and all these parties around, gifts etc. i cant wait until new year. goodtimes! i may be one day late but i still wanna wish everyone a Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays!

..jeszieBoy

..Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays..♪♫♪

Amazing Cat Machine Gun

..jeszieBoy
..die bitches! die!

Self-Stimulation

why is he doing such?

BECAUSE HE CAN! DEAL WITH IT DAWG!

..jeszieBoy
..dude.. give yourself a break.

The Real Deal Behind The Mayan Calendar (2012 Doomsday)

..jeszieBoy
..you think it's fun to make fun of it?

She Can't Be Tamed

Oh no, Miley Cyrus definitely couldn't be tamed here. that is one hell of a vajaejae Miley baby.

..jeszieBoy

..it can't be tamed! it can't be tamed!

My Kind Of Season

When i was a kid, i was always amused and elated everytime i notice the sky starting to get gloomed. the atmosphere becoming chilly, gust of cold air touching everyone on its way and the smell of the ground getting ready to get some good splash. it was like something that i would always enjoy watching. it would start with fine drizzling, slowly getting heavier until it turns into a pouring rain. and that's what i'd been really waiting for. i was faster than the speed of light. next thing you'd know, i was already outside, thumping waters with my eager feet. and then i would start yelling out, calling my friends to come out and join the fun. i always wished that it would never stop. sometimes when i'm in school, i would pray really hard; "please Jesus, tell your angels to water your plants" (that's what my mom told me about raining.) not because i wanted my teacher to get distracted with her lecture but rather distract me from her lecture. but really, i just loved it when im in school and it's raining.

15 years later, nothing has changed with this rain thingy and me. except of course that i no longer go out and dance simoultaneous with angels watering the plants up there. nevertheless, i still love everything about rain. in fact, i was stirred to make this entry coz it's raining right at this moment. summer season is finally over people! and yes, rainy season has just landed on us. my kind of season, yeah! i have long been waiting for this to really come. this summer had put on so much effort to torment us all. now im starting to have a liltte idea on how hell would be like. but worry no more, coz we are gonna get wet people!

there are tons of things that i really enjoy doing when it's raining. you know like stuff that puts me in tranquil and here are some of them;

• i enjoy it much to just stare outside and watch everyone and everything gets wet.
• drink hot coffee
• listen to my favourite songs
• lie awake and pull the blanket over my head
• mary palm (LOL!)

but nothing beats merely listening to each raindrop hitting the roofdecks of every house around with some thunder. music to my ears and really sets my mood. i am certain that i'm not left alone here. i know that thare are lots of people who like me, enjoy every bit about rain. and must have been really pleased and in great joy that our kind of season has once again come. enjoy the rain! :]

..jeszieBoy
..pumapatak na naman ang ulan sa bubong ng bahay ♪♫

Oh Shit, Bella!

..jeszieBoy

..SHE BANGS! SHE BANGS!

Make Your Car Look Like An Upper Middle Class!

..jeszieBoy

..ingenious!

Beware Of your Serene, Cuddly, Mysterious Cats

oh my gosh. my cat is not doing this to me.

..jeszieBoy

..it's been a while! :]

I Just Wonder

why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting dead?

why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough money?

why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?

why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?

why doesn't tarzan have a beard?

why does superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?

if people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?

why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use, the bubbles are always white?

is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale?

why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?

why do we fall asleep instantly when someone starts touching our hair?

when we are in the supermarket and someone rams our ankle with a shopping cart then apologizes for doing so, why do we say "it's all right?" well, it isn't all right, so why don't we say, "that really hurt, why don't you watch where you're going?"

why is it that the person you don't like is the one that's more interested in talking to you?


the statistics on sanity is that one out of every four persons are suffering from some sort of mental illness. think of your three best friends, if they're ok then it's YOU.


..jeszieBoy
..why oh, why..