Usapang Babae

the day before yesterday, i posted an entry (my come back entry, shall i say) about "usapang lalaki". prior to my posting, i knew that many would react, especially the girls (perhaps, negatively.lols.) and i was ready for any backfire. and when i say i was ready, i mean, i was ready to say that i just copied and pasted it.lols.

now the catch is, one of my friends happened to read the entry. we were on the same bus yesterday en route to our school.

her: hoy jeszieBoy! nabasa ko ung bago mong blog ah!

me: ha? wala nmn akong bagong blog ah. un pa rin ung blog ko.

her: meron! mas marunong ka pa eh. kakabasa ko lang kagabi!

me: ano bang sinasabi mo?

her: gago! ung "usapang lalaki."

me: ahh. "BAGONG ENTRY", "BAGONG POST"

her: oo, un na un. grabe ka naman. talagang pinagtatanggol mo lahi mo ah.

me: *nakatingin sa labas ng bintana

her: may sinabi ka dun eh, ung pinapaasa ng mga babae ung mga lalaki. hoy, hindi nmn lahat ganun. sobra ka nmn, tska totoo nmn na kayo dapat ang naghahawak ng isang relasyon. kya nga nmin kayo sinasagot eh.

me: *abot ng bayad sa kundoktor. isa nga pong regalado.

her: hoy! jessie! ano?

me: karen, KINOPY PASTE KO LANG YUN!

her: kahit na no! nilagay mu yun dun, dpat maging responsible ka dun.

medyo tinamaan ako dun sa sinabi nya. napaisip tuloy ako bigla. me point naman siya.

me: *tumingin sa kanya. magbasa ka bukas. may iba-blog ako. este, may ipopost pla.

for the sake of equality, as i am trying my utmost best to shun animosity, here is the counterpart of my last post.


Kapag ngumiti ka na ng konti,
nag-ayos ng konti pagkakamalan ka nang malandi.
Hindi pangseryosohang relasyon.

Marinig lang nila na malakas kang mag-salita,
palengkera ka na.
T.O. kagad sa kanila iyon.

Mahilig silang tumingin sa mga babaeng sexy manamit,
kulang nalang makita na kaluluwa.
Pero kapag babaeng seryosohin at gustong ligawan
dapat disente,
dapat mala-anghel ang mukha,
dapat mukhang inosente.
Tapos kami pa raw ang mahilig mamili?
Parang baliktad yata?

Ok, ayan nanliligaw na si lalake.

Dapat pakipot ka para suyuin ka, para habulin ka pa lalo.
Kapag hindi ka naman nagpakipot.. "easy to get" naman ang tingin sa iyo.
Hindi ka na seseryosohin.
Teka! Sino bang may sabing magpaalila kayo,
di naman namin hawak ang buhay niyo.

Natural lang na magtiis kayo, may gusto kayo sa amin eh.
Kapag nakuha niyo na iyon wala na lahat ng mga paghihirap niyo,
babaliktad na ang sitwasyon kami naman ang mamromroblema.
Para lang kayong may gustong bilhin na bagay.
Upang mabili ito kailangan munang magsakripisyo, magtipid, magtiis.
Pag nabili na at mapagsawaan wala na, balewala na. Diyan ka na sa tabi-tabi.

"Tawagan nalang kita pag trip ko o kaya'y pag may gusto akong ipagawa sa iyo"

Ano pa ba? E di sinagot mo na diba. Utang na loob pa natin yun.
Dahil naghirap daw sila sa panliligaw dapat masuklian natin iyon ng higit pa.
Sa umpisa kailangan malambing ka, maayos at laging magsisilbi sa kanya.
Ayaw daw nilang humawak ng relasyon, pero kapag ikaw naman ang nagmando,
aba! masasakal naman.

Sasabihin pa sa iyo:
"demanding ka."
HAHA :))

Meron ka pang maririnig na:
"I think we need space.",

..........at kung anu-ano pang ek-ek.

Sino rin may sabing di dapat kami magpakabait,
maging devoted at faithful?

Kapag kami ang sumaway niyang mga iyan, iba na ang tingin sa amin.
Malandi na kami, haliparot, pakawala, makikay at kung anu-ano pang mga bansag ang itatawag sa amin.

Kapag kayo gumawa noon, ok lang.
Lalake kayo eh, macho kayo pag ginawa niyo yon.
Kaya kami, walang magawa. Magpapakaburo at magpapakamadre nalang.

Kapag nagloko na kayo ano pa bang magagawa namin?
Eh di iiyak nalang. Wala namang ibang magagawa eh.

Tungkol naman sa tinatawag niyong pagdedemand namin.

Hindi kami nagdedemand! Karapatan lang namin iyon.
Karapatan namin na lambingin niyo kami, icheck at ipakita sa amin na mahal niyo kami.
Ha. Ha. Ha. :))

Hindi rin ibig sabihin na mas sincere kayo sa amin.

Seryoso rin naman kami ah. At ang maturity wala yan sa edad.
Mas maaga nga kaming magmature sa inyo.
Ang isang 19 year old na lalake eh, isip 15 pa yun. It follows iyan sa lahat ng age group.
Mas mataas pa kung minsan ang pagbawas ng level of maturity.
Kayo na ang mag-math!

Pati yung pag-iyak namin pinupuntirya niyo.

Kesyo drama daw. Diba kapag umiyak ka nagbuhos ka ng emosyon diyan.
Ano tingin niyo sa amin mga artista?!

Alam niyo iyon? Yun bang kulang nalang ay lumuha ka na ng dugo,
pero hindi ka pa rin papansinin.
Sasabihan ka pang tigilan na ang pagdradrama.
Hindi nila kami maiintindihan kapag nagseselos kami.

Bakit naman kami magseselos kung wala kaming nakikita?
Mas iba kaming magmahal. Mas masarap..


Kapag natapos na ang lambingan,
eh di siyempre iwanan blues na.
Kami pa raw ang nagsawa, kami pa raw ang nagtritrip lang.
Sino ba ang lumalayas kapag may nakita nang bago,
sino ba ang mayabang,
sino ba ang nagmamalaki?
Kami ba? Kami ang walang choice...

Kasi ang babae pag sinabing "break na tayo.."
Lambingin lang iyan ng konti balikan blues na iyan.
Kapag ang lalake ang umayaw, pucha, bahala ka diyan.
Kahit mag-tambling ka pa sa harap niya. Wa-epek.
Umiyak ka ng bato.Wa-epek.
Tsk, tsk, tsk. Tapos sila pa raw ang kawawa?

Post-break up.

Mahal pa ng babae si lalaki.
Sasamantalahin ni lalaki. Magpapagawa ng kung anu-ano.

Naaalala ka lang kapag may kailangan sa iyo.


Kapag pumangit ka after the break up, magpapasalamat sila na iniwan ka nila.
Kapag gumanda ka naman, ipagkakalat nila sa buong sangkatauhan na naging girlfriend ka niya.
Sala sa init sala sa lamig talaga.


Ano ba namang buhay to?

Ang hirap ding maging babae ano. Kala nila laging sila nalang.

Lagi rin kaming naiiwan sa ere.
P***NGI*A SAKLAP DIBA?


..jeszieBoy
..kelangan talaga may mura sa huli?

Usapang Lalaki

after 48 yrs, i finally decided to update my blog again. it's quite a long time since i last posted an entry here. medyo nawala ako sa sirkulasyon ng blogsperyo. madami kasing nangyari. talgang madami. hindi ko maisaisa dito. o mas magandang sabihing hindi ko kayang sabihin dito. dahil bka mabasa nya. nino? kung sino ang unang naiisip mo.

sa isang forum, may nabasa akong thread. Na-engganyo akong basahin dahil sa sulsol ng isang kaibigan. pagkatapos kong basahin, na realize ko na tama. tama ang lahat ng nabasa ko. narealize ko ang mga bagay na hindi ko nmn naiisip nung mga panahong ako ang nasa ganoong sitwasyon.. siguro dahil persistent ako na maayus ang mga bagay na alam kong hindi nmn na maayos. ngayon eto, basahin mo. ng makapag isip isip ka. :]




*grabe. usapang lalake*
*sindi ng yosi*
*hithit*
*buga*

Musta na, pare?
Ako, okay lang.
Eto. Nagmumuni-muni. Nag-iisip.
Minsan talaga may mga bagay na hindi ko maintindihan.
Ewan ko ba.

*hinga ng malalim*

Bakit ba ganun pare,ilang beses ko na pinag-aralan pero lagi na lang lumalabas na parang kahit ‘sang anggulo mo tingnan,
hindi nagiging patas para sa mga lalake ang ilang bagay pagdating sa pagmamahal.

*tingin sa stars*

Minsan naiisip ko, alam kaya ng mga babae ang hirap ng lalake
na gumawa ng first move para magtapat ng pagmamahal?
E yung hirap na dinadaanan sa panliligaw at pagsuyo sa mahal nya?
Ang feeling ng masaktan pag nabasted?
Malamang-lamang siguro, hindi ano.
Wala naman yata silang alam sa mga paghihirap naten e.

Ang alam lang ata nila e
mamili, manakit, at magsaya.
Tingin mo?

*tingin sa malayo*

Lagi naman ganun. Una pa lang, lalake na ang naghihirap.
Hassle saten ang panliligaw pero bago pa yun,
kung ano pang diskarte ang gagawin naten
para masabi naten sa kanila na mahal natin sila.
Alam kaya nila yun? Mahirap magsabi na mahal mo na yung babae, diba?
Tapos liligawan pa naten.

Patutunayan na mahal nga sila.

Susuyuin..

to-the-max.

Maghahatid sa bahay, tutulungan,
sasabayan, palalamunin, pagtyatyagaan,
lahat na.

Kulang na lang e pagsilbihan mo nang
walang sahod. (Hahaha!)

At ano ang kapalit? Well, depende sa trip nila. Oo tol, sa trip lang nila.
Wala silang pake kesehodang mahal natin talaga sila.

Basta ang alam nila, pag di nila tayo trip,
isang malaking HINDE ang makukuha
naten,

kahit umiyak pa tayo ng dugo o lumuhod sa mga asing buu-buo.
Para lang silang namimili ng damit na di man lang sinusukat bago ayawan.
Kaya kahit mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal natin, sorry tayo.
Hindi nila alam kung mahal mo sila.
Kailangan mong maabot ang kanilang mga standards o uuwi ka lang na bad trip, iiling-iling, at minsan, luhaan.

Wala tayong magagawa, marami silang alibi.

“Hindi pa ‘ko ready eh..”,
“Sorry pero I think we should just be friends..”,
“Ha? Uhhmm.. nagpapatawa ka ba? Hahahaha..”
“Better luck next time na lang muna, okay lang?”,
“Give me a decade. Pag-iisipan ko muna..”,
"Para lang kitang kapatid eh.. "

yaddah yaddah.

Isang malaking pagsasaklob ng langit at lupa ‘yon para saten.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*

At hindi lang ‘yon tol. Sa pre-relationship stage pa lang yon.
Pag sinagot na nila tayo, satin pa rin ang hassle.

Tayo daw ang mga lalake kaya..
tayo ang hahawak ng relasyon.
Tayo ang aayos kung may gulo;
tayo ang dapat magpapakabait;
tayo ang magtatyaga;
tayo ang magiging devoted at faithful;
tayo, tayo tayo.

Sila? Ummm… Teka, isipin ko.

Ayun.

Sila ang magsasabi kung anong oras kayo dapat magmeet;
sila ang magtetext ng mga mushy at kabalbalang texts;
sila ang magdedemand sayo ng kung anu-ano;
sila ang magbabawal;
sila ang magsasabi kung kelan ka dapat mag-shave,
kung kelan ka pwedeng tumawag sa bahay nila,
kung kelan sila di dapat bad tripin dahil meron sila,
at kung kelan ka korni.

Ewan. Ganun ata talaga.

*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*


Hindi pa yun tapos pare, dahil dapat tayo ang bahala kung ano ang magiging takbo ng relasyon.

Pag maganda, edi okay.
Pag may problema, kasalanan naten.
Haay buhay. Minsan talaga kung tutuusin sakit sila ng ulo.
Kaya lang mahal naten kaya di na natin iniintindi yun.

*hinga ng malalim*

Pero alam mo tol, feeling ko mas sincere pa tayo magmahal sa kanila.
Alam mo yun, iba tayo magmahal e.
Hindi lang parang laru-laro lang. Seryoso.
At kung magmahal man tayo, lubus-lubusan.

Mas mature?
Hindi yung parang pambata lang gaya nila na kesyo magseselos-selos, iiyak-iyak, iina-inarte, dadradrama, at kung anu-ano pa.
Hindi lang kababawan. Ka-mushyhan. Kababaihan. Iba tayo pag nagmahal.

*hinga ng malalim*
*tingin sa malayo ulit*

At ito pa ang pinakamasaklap.

*singhot*

Ang ending ng relasyon.
Sa mga panahong ‘to, either
sawa na sila, hindi na tayo trip,
may nahanap na silang better saten,
o kaya they need f*cking space and time muna.
Bad trip no? Wala na naman tayong choice. Sila ang masusunod.

At ano pa ang kasamang hassle don?
Syempre wasak na ang imahe naten.
Tayo ang lalabas na may kasalanan.
Na playboy. Na nagpapaiyak.

*iiling*

Tayo siyempre ang mga antagonist
at sila yung mga bidang inaapi at parang mga pusang iiyak-iyak.

Ang ending:
mag-ooffer sila ng “friendship” kuno matapos tayong pagsawaan,
lahat ng gifts naten nasa kanila,
sawi tayo sa pag-ibig, “player” na ang image naten,
at higit sa lahat,
mag-iisip kung papaano ipagpapatuloy ang buhay.
Maiiwan tayong tulala, mag-iisip kung saan nagkamali, mamomroblema sa pag-aadjust sa pagiging single, at di na naman makakatulog.

Haay buhay. Ang hirap maging lalake.
Lagi ka na lang naiiwan sa ere.
Ano? Hindi ka na nagsalita? In-love ka no?

Ako, kamusta? Eto.
Yoyosi-yosi. Bubuntong-buntong hininga. Titingin-tingin sa bituin. Mumuni-muni. Lalagok ng alak

Ang mga babae talaga, oo.

..jeszieBoy
..I'M BACK BLOGGING! :]

Flick that switch off! MAKE A DIFFERENCE!

one of my blog mates who happened to be boris invited me to join this so-called EARTH HOUR 2009. it sounded to me like a pageant with environment saving and all that. i was leery upon doing so since I'm not an environmentalist sort of thing and I'm one of those stereotypes of people who just don't really care about these stuff. but i told my self, why not give it a try? might gain something from it. so i checked it out. and upon watching these videos, i felt goosebumps. (literally) hairs on my nape pricked up. i really don't know why, but its like there's something inside me that wanted come out. a voice wanted to be heard. i just felt like ecstatic about this. excitement enveloped me. a surge of enthusiasm suddenly engulfed the entirety of me. i immediately signed up. and now i did this entry to inform everyone! we can all make a difference. this is just one of the simple ways in doing such. pls watch the videos and take part in our fight against climate change!

it's time to make a difference. it's time to make a change! help save our earth!

VOTE FOR EARTH! and let her win this global election!




let's all make a difference! JOIN THE EARTH HOUR 2009!
VOTE FOR EARTH!

on March 28, at exactly 8:30 pm, turn off all the lights for an hour and be part of saving mother earth.


Earth Hour 2009 by WWF - Sign up for Earth Hour!

..jeszieBoy
..GLOBAL WARMING → HELL NO!

just a piece of aphorism

(this is another entry from my former blog. i posted this like 4 or 5 months ago when I, was still in the stage of moving on. posting it here basically means nothing but to help other people who are in the same stage right now.)


let us first define what an aphorism is;
aphorism - a concise statement intended to make a point.

hey! sup guys? i’m here again.. just wanna share something! :]

hmmm.. today, upon waking myself up from a woderful nap, i just realized that i want to share this simple yet very consoling piece of aphorism. when i read this, it immediately got my nerves, it sank in, and made me feel that everything’s gonna be alright.

I’m talking about those broken-hearted folks. this aphorism will be really helpful to those people who still couldn’t get over their past relationships. those people who find it hard to let go of everything that has something to do with their ex’s, for those who sob their hearts out every night, while listening to some mellow music. For those who always reminisce, who always hope, and wish that someday their gonna be together again, although they know the very fact that they’ve been long forgotten by these people. I’m talking about people LIKE ME folks! :]

there was this guy who added me in friendster. but the idea of this post doesn’t revolve around that guy. he was accessory to the crime though. when i viewed his page.. and was scanning the whole profile, i saw group of words written somewhere in the middle of his page, making a two sentence statement. i read it. and it goes..

“Someday, someone’s gonna walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with someone else.”

i was palpitating, i read it again. this time, with all my perceptions;

“Someday, someone’s gonna walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with someone else.”

and boom! i couldn’t take my eyes off of that sentence, it was like repeatedly echoing at the back of my mind. i went to my room, grabbed a pen and a piece of paper, jot it down with my chicken-scratch penmanship, and pinned it on the wall. i read it again, and again, and again, and again.

it made me think, that it’s true. so true. someday, someone will come into our life, and make everything almost perfect. someone who will make us feel that we are so special. the feeling that we so wished didn’t fade during our past relationship. and by then we’ll get to realize, that this is why, it never worked with him/her. that’s why, during those times, no matter how i beg, he/she just wouldn’t give me a chance. that’s why we never made up.

you see, we just have to bear in mind that we have to be affirmative. not just in this aspect of life, but in all aspect. like family, friends, school, work, everything where you get to encounter a lot of different problems. it’s ok to cry, don’t feel embarrassed doing so, whether you’re a girl or a guy, especially for us, guys. crying uplifts our burdens. crying makes us feel that we are somehow fortified after each cries, knowing that we bear all this obstacles of life. cry. just cry. but not for a while. after each cries be sure that you have strengthened yourself.

i hope i was able to help some of you guys, who are still batlling yourselves against these pains, and hurts and all that. i hope the aphorism that i have given you, has somehow comforted you, the way it has comforted my still bewildered feelings.

before i set this post off, i want you guys to read this once again. with all your heart. understand each word, and make them penetrate you. and i want you guys to read them aloud. just don’t mind the people around you if there’s any. ready? here we go.

“Someday, someone’s gonna walk into my life and make me realize why it never worked out with you, -say the name of your ex-”

we can do this! just remember! ALWAYS BE AFFIRMATIVE. AT ALL TIMES, ok? tnx for reading guys! have a nice day! :]

..jeszieBoy

..you can do it! CO'Z YOU ROCK!

Frustrated Working Student

I'm a freakin' frustrated working student. ever since i entered college i wanted to work na to earn money para mabili ang mga gusto ko na ayaw ibigay ng parents ko kahit na kaya nmn nila. they would always say that i'm too young for these stuffs. and one more thing, i really wanted to experience how it's like being a working student. kaya nmn i was so eager to get a work, simultaneous with my studies.

when i was in first yr, i was browsing over the internet, and looking for part-time jobs that would suit me. and then i came across this ads about call center stuff. and i was like reluctant to apply on-line but i thought it was exciting, so i just did. i was not expecting anything from that because i knew they're not gonna sort of pick me up, coz my resumé was almost unfilled. so i got really surprised when one time, at school, someone called me and she was telling me that she's from that call center company, and that they had received my resumé. she asked me if i was still interested. and i just said "HELL YEA!"

so she was asking random things about my self. i didn't know that i was doing a phone interview na pla! malay ko ba? twas my first time! what do you expect? the phone interview lasted for like 10-20 minutes. and then she told me that she's scheduling me for a personal interview. i said "ok, no problem." it was settled. through out the conversation my age was never asked so i thought it was just ok. besides i put on my resumé that i was just 17 yrs old. but i wanted to be so sure so i told her that i'm just 17 and if it would matter. it was evident from the sound of her voice that she was surprised. she retreated our appointment coz they're not accepting under age daw. dammit! i just screwed my self. but right after my 18th b day daw i could come back and they'd be accepting me by then, i never came back. and that was the end of my call center career!

last Christmas break, i was so freakin' bored in the house so i texted my best buddy. i was planning to apply in a Korean School as an English teacher where he works. matagal na rin nya kasi akong niyayaya dun. i just didn't think i had enough patience to teach these people. dahil ang hirap daw nilang turuan! but that day, i don't know but I was just so resolute that i wanna apply. and if ever na matanggap, wala ng problema. 18 na kasi ako. and fortunately, after a 3 hour exam (seriously!) and an interview, natanggap nmn ako. they told me to go back the next day co'z they're gonna be giving me students na. magtuturo na ako!

i didn't tell my parents about this whole applying thing co'z i know, for sure they're gonna be killing me, especially my dad. so nilihim ko. but GOD really works in mysterious ways. someone told him about that and it just pissed me off! i was asking him kung sino nagsabi sa knya pero ayaw nyang sabihin. the next thing i knew, he was yelling at me na. am i proposing daw ba right into his face na he's not a good provider? you know, the whole thing that parents usually put in their head. ugh.

just to stop the clash between me and him i told him that i'm quitting it. haaay. though i was really dying to get started the next day, i just gave it up. i never came back. they kept on calling me on the phone but i didn't answer it. and that was the end of my teaching career!

until i came to a point where i reflected. maybe GOD doesn't really want me to work while studying. maybe He wanted me to accomplish my studies first before giving me all the stress that i'm looking for! haha. if that's what HE wants, then fine! no more jobs. for the mean time, focus on my studies. i guess i have to filch some pennies from my mom's purse.haha. kidding! :]

..jeszieBoy

..who can give me a part time job? :]]