After 6 Months

I really dont know how to start up this post. it's been 6 freaking moths since i last posted an entry. i just literally darted off from the blogsphere for pretty much a while. crap, i know my blogging thingy is starting to really get dilapidated. i just lack everything. the drive, ideas, time, creativity, whatever, and i hate it coz i've always loved blogging. or maybe not. maybe i just dont get to have more time to sit in front of my computer and let my struggling imagination and my reluctant fingers do the rest.

or it could be because of this;

im already on my senior year which means i have to really work my butt hard if i wanna get my name on that list of students who will be marching in PICC this summer. everything is swiftly pacing, fast track. im not even sure if im catching up with everything that's going on. i feel like i wanna smoke pot right now just to slow everything down or just hit that pause button even for a little while. this sem has got to be the hardest! but man, there aint nothing to it but to just do it and get everything done in time, hopefully. and then graduate!

yea, that's pretty convincing and more acceptable. so i think imma stick to it. on other note, i really missed blogging. i just wish every faculty in school gets sick so everything will be postponed until further notice. or every printing machines they have get jammed. that way i'll have all the time i want to just blog and blog and blog! i've been missing a lot! probably everything. is that what you call s-a-c-r-i-f-i-c-e? damn. i wonder how it feels to get school stuff as sacrifice for every gods in this planet.

CHRISTMAS! i almost forgot. it actually kinda ease everything up with all these mouth-watering food my mom made and all these parties around, gifts etc. i cant wait until new year. goodtimes! i may be one day late but i still wanna wish everyone a Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays!

..jeszieBoy

..Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays..♪♫♪

Frustrated Working Student

I'm a freakin' frustrated working student. ever since i entered college i wanted to work na to earn money para mabili ang mga gusto ko na ayaw ibigay ng parents ko kahit na kaya nmn nila. they would always say that i'm too young for these stuffs. and one more thing, i really wanted to experience how it's like being a working student. kaya nmn i was so eager to get a work, simultaneous with my studies.

when i was in first yr, i was browsing over the internet, and looking for part-time jobs that would suit me. and then i came across this ads about call center stuff. and i was like reluctant to apply on-line but i thought it was exciting, so i just did. i was not expecting anything from that because i knew they're not gonna sort of pick me up, coz my resumé was almost unfilled. so i got really surprised when one time, at school, someone called me and she was telling me that she's from that call center company, and that they had received my resumé. she asked me if i was still interested. and i just said "HELL YEA!"

so she was asking random things about my self. i didn't know that i was doing a phone interview na pla! malay ko ba? twas my first time! what do you expect? the phone interview lasted for like 10-20 minutes. and then she told me that she's scheduling me for a personal interview. i said "ok, no problem." it was settled. through out the conversation my age was never asked so i thought it was just ok. besides i put on my resumé that i was just 17 yrs old. but i wanted to be so sure so i told her that i'm just 17 and if it would matter. it was evident from the sound of her voice that she was surprised. she retreated our appointment coz they're not accepting under age daw. dammit! i just screwed my self. but right after my 18th b day daw i could come back and they'd be accepting me by then, i never came back. and that was the end of my call center career!

last Christmas break, i was so freakin' bored in the house so i texted my best buddy. i was planning to apply in a Korean School as an English teacher where he works. matagal na rin nya kasi akong niyayaya dun. i just didn't think i had enough patience to teach these people. dahil ang hirap daw nilang turuan! but that day, i don't know but I was just so resolute that i wanna apply. and if ever na matanggap, wala ng problema. 18 na kasi ako. and fortunately, after a 3 hour exam (seriously!) and an interview, natanggap nmn ako. they told me to go back the next day co'z they're gonna be giving me students na. magtuturo na ako!

i didn't tell my parents about this whole applying thing co'z i know, for sure they're gonna be killing me, especially my dad. so nilihim ko. but GOD really works in mysterious ways. someone told him about that and it just pissed me off! i was asking him kung sino nagsabi sa knya pero ayaw nyang sabihin. the next thing i knew, he was yelling at me na. am i proposing daw ba right into his face na he's not a good provider? you know, the whole thing that parents usually put in their head. ugh.

just to stop the clash between me and him i told him that i'm quitting it. haaay. though i was really dying to get started the next day, i just gave it up. i never came back. they kept on calling me on the phone but i didn't answer it. and that was the end of my teaching career!

until i came to a point where i reflected. maybe GOD doesn't really want me to work while studying. maybe He wanted me to accomplish my studies first before giving me all the stress that i'm looking for! haha. if that's what HE wants, then fine! no more jobs. for the mean time, focus on my studies. i guess i have to filch some pennies from my mom's purse.haha. kidding! :]

..jeszieBoy

..who can give me a part time job? :]]

wut happened to ma christmas?

hay salamat. Nairaos ko din ang aking FREEZING COLD CHRISTMAS. well hinde ko naman xa maxadong naramdaman kasi natulog lang ako. :)) Pero bago un, nagpakalasing pala muna ako. MAGISA! o kaya nyu ba un? lols. I had no choice eh. I was left alone, in the house. And that was actually my very first time, to spend christmas alone, and away from my family. And I 'm not used to that. that's why I guess, nagpakalasing na lang ako MAGISA!


here's the catch.

My granpa passed away last dec. 10. (mother side ko ha.) so my mom went to Surigao. Dun probinsya nila. naiwan kami dito nina erpat, kapatid na babae at kuya ko. My dad then was planning to follow. But the problem was that we still had our exams. My kuya was not interesred to go there. Inde ko alam sa kanya kung bakit. Ako naman, ewan ko. I don't really know. Actually, I was reluctant talaga to go there. Kasi nahihiya ako. I was I think, grade 5 pa the last time I went there. wala lang. nahihiya tlga ko dun. Inde kasi ako close sa mother side ko. sa father side ako sobrang close. Batangas lang kasi un. malapit lang. So i decided na magpaiwan na lng. but I had to endure the consequence. That i had to spend christmas alone. haha. ung kuya ko nmn kasi may sarili syang mundo. kasam abarkada nya. lols. so sumunod sa surigao erpat ko pati kapatid kong babae. tska pabor nman un sa kanila na nagpaiwana ko. ang mahal mahal ng plane ticket ngaun. peak season kasi.

So un. magisa akong nagpasko. Nagiwan naman si erpat ng pampasko namin ng kuya ko. Kaso sabi ko naman, sayang lang. dalawa lang nman kami, so wag nlang magluto. and besides, walng magluluto. dahil xempre, wala yung katulong namin. xmas eh. naawa siguro skin utol ko, tinawag nya ko. punta nmn ako. nakita ko siya nagiinuman together with his barkada. sabay sabi nya! "tagay muna jez!" I immediately said "NO!" not because I don't drink. But simply becuase I'm not used to drinking with utol. Tpos napakarami pang barkada nya which not even one of them I know. pero when i saw kung ano ung iniinom nila, nanlambot kagad mga tuhod ko! REDHORSE! MY FAVOURITE! nagdalawang isip tuloy ako. pero ayoko tlga kasi NAKAKAHIYA! but utol kept on insisting. so tumagay lang ako ng isa. pucha! nung natikman ko, nawala ako sa ulirat ko! grabe! I haven't drunk redhorse for quite a while now. I coudn't even remember the last time I had it. so pagkatagay ko, i went out, bought a couple of redhorse! haha. ANG SARAP KASI EH! nagun lang ulit ako makakainom nito. tapos nagkulong ako sa kwarto ko. dun ko inubos!haha! nung maubos, tipsy na ko. eh medyo nabitin. I was about to buy another set, when i saw this red wine. may redwine pa pala dito . edi yun naman inupakan ko! :)) lols. lupit nu?

while I was putting myslef to the different dimension, tinitxt ko na ang mga tao. ng meri xmas. tinxt ko ung ex ko. na inde man lang nagreply. inde man lang nya ko naalala. haha. ewan ko sa kanya. siguro dahil may nilgay akong "amisyow" at "tekker coz i kerr! sa txt ko. pero nakakalungkot lang tlga na di nya man lang ako naalala. pati nga nung bday ko di man lang nya binati. haha! kaw tlga! tas i texted my other ex. this is what i said:

"hi nicka! meri xmas!

sori sa lhat ng nagawa ko sau ha?

as in sori tlga.

sana masaya ka ngaun.

GODBLESS! :]"

inde kasi akong masyadong naging boyfriend material sa kanya. parang I took her for granted, alam ko kasing lagi syang nandyan. umaga na ng mabasa ko ung reply nya. masaya daw xa kasi kinumpleto ko xmas nya. and natuwa nmn ako sa nabasa kong un. at least ako napasaya ko sya, samantalng ako di man lang pinasaya nung isa kong ex.

haha! anyweis, ganun lang nangyari sa xmas eve ko.

tapos nung25, lumayas ako ng bhay. umala kung saan saan kasam aang aking bestfriend. 12 na ata ako ng gabi nakauwe.haha. tas andun na pla sina erpat. nakabalik na. bute nman! me makakain na ulit ako! new yr nmn ang paghahandaan ko! pero this time, KUMPLETO NA KAMI! :]


..natatawa tlga ako. while I was doing this post, i didn't know na nasa likod ko pla si erpat, and he was actually reading this. tapos nabasa nya ung part na "tagay muna jez" na naka bold pa. and he just said; "i knew it! i knew u'r just gonna drink here!" haha! epal tlga tong erpat ko! :))



..jeszieBoy
..iam so excited for this new yr! :]

REST, FINALLY!

Wooooh! I just wanna celebrate right now. Co'z finally, it's break. Christmas break. I've been dying for this day to really come. Co'z there's a lot of stuffs that I wanna do. Like reading books which are not related to my subjects. I bought a couple of books 3 weeks ago. And up to this moment, not a single of 'em had i even scanned the pages. And I just feel like elated because finally, I'll be able to start to engross myself to these books. And I'm freakin' excited co'z they're my favourite authors, yea. :]

Another thing is Christmas shopping! hehe. I haven't shopped yet, and a lot of really interesting clothes I saw in greenhills, that I wanna buy, but I just got a problem. I can't find someone who could actually come with me. I mean, isn't it more enjoyable to shop with someone?hehe. But I can manage to be alone though. :]

But the most important thing that I am really looking forward to, is that I can finally stay in bed for hours!! yeeeaa! more sleeep! sleep! and sleep! and it's also a perfect time for me to get my piercing, finally. And another henna tattoo. I'm kinda sleepy now, so I guess I have to get going. I mean, in bed. haha! Hope to have an enjoyable vacation.. enjoy your vacation as well! before another piles of books to be read! see ya!

..jeszieBoy :]