57 Things To Do Instead Of killing Yourself

Early this morning when i woke up from one of my wildest dreams, i realized that i forgot to turn off my tv last night. it was still on the same channel. it was like the cnn reporter was actually on my dream. she was delivering her spiel (if that's what you call it) about this guy who tried to kill himself but unsuccessful. and then i switched to a local news channel. -a broken hearted guy jumped off the MRT track as the train approaching. and guess what happened, he survived. if my mind is serving me right, it would be the second of such incident. and then i thought, jumping off MRT tracks, has it become a trend? i wonder what preoccupies the minds of these people.

and so i was surfing the net, stumbling and came across this list of things that one can actually engaged in instead of trying to kill themselves. some of these may be nonsense but there's one thing that this list is trying to convey. i just hope people will realize that.

• Drive in one direction until you reach the ocean.
• Say hello to everyone you pass during the day.
• Frown until your mouth muscles hurt (then see how much easier it is to smile.)
• Create your own alphabet.
• Start a scrapbook.
• Make something you invented or invent something you can make.
• Figure out if has no solution for non zero integers x, y, and z if n is an integer greater than two.
• Make a BLT.
• Work the crossword puzzle.
• Count backwards from 10 billion by 13s.
• Visit a yard sale.
• Put on some really comfortable shoes. Walk somewhere in them.
• Make something nice for someone and give it to them.
• Go see a movie. (See two or three in a row. You may have to make extended visits to the restroom between films.)
• Read The Lost Soul Companion.
• Make your own list of things to do instead of killing yourself (and then do them.)
• Organize your own mock funeral, invite family and friends, encourage them to eulogize you. (Tell them how you've really been feeling lately and see what happens.)
• Let someone proofread your suicide note.
• Build a fort.
• Meditate.
• Shampoo your hair. Repeat if desired.
• Create an elaborate hoax. (Try not to get arrested.)
• Get arrested.
• Blow the stink off!
• Sneak into a church. Enjoy the sunlight and quiet.
• Write me a letter. (Be assured of a hopeful reply.)
• Volunteer somewhere.
• Doodle.
• Enter a contest.
• Write a poem.
• Just breathe.
• Take a class.
• Finish something you started.
• Drink a cup of tea with sugar and milk if that's how you like it.
• Jump up and down on a big trampoline.
• Pray.
• Eat a tomato.
• Pet a kitty cat.
• Smoke a cigarette. (It's slower.)
• Answer your telephone the next time it rings. (I know you haven't been...)
• Ask a stranger for some good advice.
• Paint a mural.
• Start a garden.
• Do the dishes. (It's OK if you've let them pile up. Wash a couple of them at least.)
• Visit lostsoulcompanion.com.
• Rescue an animal.
• Take your loose change to the bank.
• Play some beautiful music.
• Ask an old person to tell you a story.
• Make yourself breakfast in bed.
• Eat cookies.
• Stare at clouds.
• Visit the maternity ward.
• Send flowers anonymously.
• Make a long to-do list. Do everything on it.
• Set a world record.
• Open the curtains.

..jeszieBoy

..man the point is there's more to life. it's beautiful, so dont waste yours.

KUYA WAG PO!

I seriously don't know how to start this post. I'm not even sure if it's right to post it here. I mean that incident happened to me a few days ago. but because i couldn't think of anything else, i thought of posting it here nalng.

here's the catch..

nagpunta ako sa gateway after nung new yr. wala lang. just to roam around cubao. tabi tabi nmn kasi mall dun. i went to farmers, then to gateway, then to sm, tas sa alimall. then i went back to gateway. todo porma ako nun,. kasi naghahanap ng pwedeng makilalang maganda.. haha, malay mu me makapansin sa konting kaguwapuhan ko.. haha.lols. but i was not serious that time. just merely for the pleasure of meeting someone. and not going beyond that., well, ewan ko lang. haha! tas ayun. naglalakad ako sa gateway, ung lakad ko eh mabagal lang. co'z i really didn't know where to go next. i noticed that someone was walking behind me. then myamya, katabi ko na xang naglalakad. we were of the same height, medyo mas malaki lang ung katawan nya. he was wearing a black shirt with body bag. un lang ung napansin ko. it's not that i was looking at him, makikita mu pa rin nmn un kahit di mu tinitingnan.

naglalakad parin ako. when he said something which i didn't understand. i looked at him and asked;

ako : anu po yun?

siya: sabi ko cute!

ako: ha? sino po?

siya: ikaw!

ako: haha. kuya lokoloko ka ah.

siya: eh cute ka nmn tlga eh.

ako: sus.

i didn't know how to react that time. uu masarap sabihan ka ng isang tao na cute ka. pero ng LALAKI? ok rin siguro. pero alm mong iba ung dating nun eh. this time i started to walk faster. pero sinasabayan nya ung bilis ko. then he said;

siya: san ka pupunta?

ako: uhm, makikipagkita po sa kaibigan ko.

siya: sama ako.

ako: nako inde po pwede. me lakad po kami eh.

siya: san ba kau pupunta?

ako: ewan ko po sa kanya. ah cge po kuya una na po ko ha?

then i darted off to a different direction just to make sure na he won't be following me na. i looked at my back, wala na xa. sa isip ko, "hay bute nmn." akala ko dun na yun matatapos. inde pa pla. kung baga sa mga tv shopping na napapanuod ko, "wait! there's more!"

pumunta ako sa food court ng gateway. nagutom kasi ako bigla. kumaen ako. after non, bumili ako ng relo na panregalo sa kaibigan ko. then after that, i decided to go home na since it's getting late na. i was walking na dun sa bridge that connects gateway and farmers when suddenly, someone thumped me at my back. i immediately tilted my head to see who just did that. and boy, i'm telling you guys, i almost freaked out, when i saw that man again, almost kissing my nape. ANO BANG PROBLEMA NYA? i lowered my head and pushed him away. buti nlng ang daming tao dun, at wala na xang nagawa. he was still following me hanggang sa farmers.

(habang naglalkad ako nito ng mabilis ah.)

siya: san ka na pupunta?

ako: uuwi na po.

siya: kala ko me lakad kayo ng kaibigan mo?

ako: eh nxt tym nlng daw po eh.

siya: ahh, nuod muna tau sine.

ako: ha? eh nako. wag na po. wala rin ako pera.

siya: sige na ako na bahala.

then he instantly laid his right arm over my right shoulder! "p*tang ina. anu ba to?" syempre i was totally aware nmn kung anung gusto nyang mangyre. and HELL! 'EM NOT INTERESTED! and without further ado, inalis ko yung pagkakaakbay nya saken. ewan ko ba, bigla ko nlng nasabi to.

ako: kuya! hinde ako bakla! at lalong hindi ako callboy! kaya wag mu na akong susundan!

then i darted off, walking really fast. my heart was pounding so badly. i could see that people were looking at me, but i didn't care at all. all i wanted that time was to get home, immediately. hanep. ganun pla ung filing. first time ko ma experience un. kala nya makukuha nya ko. haha. muka nya. sine lang?inde ako ganun ka cheap! next time alam ko na gagawin ko! wahaha. joke lang yun mga tsong! tae tlga, grabeng experience un ahh. cge na.

dinner time na. tinatawag na ako ng aking mahal na ina. :]

..jeszieBoy

..muka ba kong bakla o callboy? :]]

my BIG! and LOOONG! and ATTRACTIVE FEET!

One of my chat mates in FS asked my number. Last week i think, if I'm not mistaken.. Not feeling like a star or something, I gave it to him. He wanted a text mate daw. I'm open naman to everybody. I try my very best to reply to them as long as i have load. pero kung wala, eh pasenxa. Sorry lang. haha. if they want, they can give me load. haha! :)) so there. he was texting me. and it so happened that i was unli that time, so i was replying to his text msgs. just usual praises from people like "u know u're cute!" and I would just say "oh thank you sa pambobola." haha, and i'm sooo used to those pambobolas! haha. lagi naman eh! (yabang no? wahaha! :]])

but something really got my nerves, when he asked me that he wanted to see my feet! and i was like, "WTF?" and i asked him if what did he mean. he said that he really wanted to see my feet. how it's like, how it's built, how they were. and seriously folks when i told him that if he was out of his mind asking that favor, he was like, begging at the top of whatever was on his mind. and i asked him "what for?" he just said

"nothin' i just wanna see them plsss? can you show it to me? can u take pictures of 'em and post them on ur blog? pls I'm begging. i just wanna see them."

and I was like, "what the heck is wrong with this man?"

but i had an idea. since he's asking for it, might as well give it. I thought it would be a great topic on my site. so i took pictures of my feet. my I-think-so-attractive feet! :)) for that guy. whom i really don't know why he's asking for it. haha! there's the pictures! magsawa ka! haha!

DO YOU GUYS THINK HE'S OUT OF HIS MIND? OR WAS IT SIMPLY JUST BECAUSE IT'S HIS FETISH OR SOMETHING? HAHA! THIS REALLY MADE ME LAUGH AND THINK THAT PEOPLE ARE SOOO WEIRD! :))

..jeszieBoy

..iam so damn proud now of my feet! :]]